My son and I are ripped apart because of police DCFS And close ties with judge and sons representing lawyer. After almost passing up covid finding masses and multiple other tragic and unforseen circumstances I intercovery asked for help with my child. I don't have a lot of support I have Created it for my son with the unseen health issues The travel back and forth to you from idaho it was getting insensitive so Made a leap to hotels in salt lake city utah. After the continuous running around of my medical disability team My company and Health care team I eventually ran out of money. I reached out for help. Everyone deserves help. Who I reach out to with this a Difficult choice, and obviously the wrong choice. She has details in the county and has a legally withheld my child for me, which in general is kidnapping, She has Forge documentation as a notary she has manipulated. Not only me but my child .taken away His coping skills that he has had for years. Taken him from everything that he knows. I did not get an investigation. Provo city illegally withheld my child for me. They filed a protective order in a county in which they are I do not resign And her mother and the judge overseeing my case grew up together, and they are all in the same ward. I've asked countless times for a change of venue. I have done the things that they want me to do and feel as if this entire time I have been set up. With ups and downs and my trauma And p t s d Continuously being triggered. I have done the things that they wanted me to do. I believe my drug tests were altered or faked and any which way I did have a relapse but in recovery now. Is there about to take him away and adopt him out. My son is my best friend And the only family that I have all this is wrong and No one should be set up and pushed to the points that I have been. . Just because they want a child of their own. As she smiles at me,  I'm not allowed to talk In the court room. My rights I have no rights. End of the day my son is suffering and wants to come home. He's a very confused four year old He wants to protect his mom. He told me before all this happened. That mama not safe? And I didn't understand until now. If this judge is doing this to me, what are they doing to other people's children. I requested a new caseworker never received. I requested a change of venue never received both of my lawyers A hired and a public defender do nothing for me. I have lost my career my home and everything in between because of these situations. I'm still here fighting and I am so hurt and I am scared For my son, his bright isn't there anymore. I'm unfair for my son because I have a mother intuition. Something. Is going to happen that he will no longer ever be here. I've made the hard choices. I've adopted a kid album for if it's right. Yeah, I'll do it, this isn't right.  I thought about suicide just to keep him safe from the other side. I have been pushed past break points and my son. His Shawna has not been acknowledged either. He held my hair back while I was dying of COVID and internal bleeding. He was my true leader he laid with me when my best friend past last year. Mama will be o k, we do scooter rides together. We go on mountain hikes together, we do everything together. He was in my care half the week and the her care half. The week I was transitioning home. Because she had not the requirements. I had asked for her to get done. So the last time that I took him back. I just wanted to make sure things were in order. As we were supposed to do his parents. She ripped it out of my arms after 2 hour. Calm down because they didn't want to go back and told me In front of my three-year-old at the time, why don't you just die already? Can't you see you're hurting him?  This is not what you do to someone you love. This is not how you gain a child. You don't abuse the system I as a single mom by one of the hardest apprenticeship programs to get in recovery. There's a lot of statistics out there, but a lot of statistics are because of these situations. If we don't fall, we don't learn if we're not helped. We have to cope to be there for our children. Big set up and pushed in continuously continuously withheld from your child is not the correct or Healthy way to get what you want. I need help overturning this adoption. That is 5 days away on October 6 2023.