Purim 

Amalek 

Shaming 

Denying 

"Cooling down" 

Haman wanted to kill all the Jews because we were "strange" and spread amd throughout the nations- as if our convictions make us "strange" and needs to be annihilated chas visholom. 

The original amakekim were the first ones to start up with the Jewish poeple in the dessert and not only did they start up with is - but they cut off the male reproductive organ כל החשלים אחרך - רש"י explains the word - נחשלים (tails) that the pussuk writes, to mean the reproductive organ and explained that the amalekim cut off the reproductive organ of the Jewish poeple and threw it up to the heavens. 

Besides for that sounding evil, nasty, disgusting to the highest level it also sounds like denial of passion, the pleasure a person has inside their own body.

This reminded me of what they did to me in the hospital. They sewed up my clitoral hood causing the organ inside to not have a way to express itself and when the body sees an organ isn't being used the body gets rid of it and it disintegrates as part of the "housekeeping" of the body. They also sewed up my urethra and pulled the skin forward so that area also disintegrated. 

Destroying many elements of my female pleasure from inside my body. 

Denying the fact that it accualy ever existed because the area "shrunk" once the earra under disintegrated. 

The body is one organ - everything is connected- there is no such a thing as one area and pleasure espetially produces oxytocin which effects many other functions of the body.  

What they did to me in the hospital - many poeple don't understand how the clitoris works - there is a link for a deeper explanation. 

Female pleasure is important 

Very important 

Not only is it really important - but it exists and as females we have the same ability to "get big"/ get aroused as men - the tissue is just distributed differently 

When they sewed up my clitoral hood they basically caused that my clitoris to destroy itself. Even though it goes really deep, because I was in an extremely aroused state being that I had just had an unmedicated birth and also they sewed up my urethra otherwise known as the labia manora.  There are two areas in the female organ- the labia manora which is the thinner lips that are much more sensitive and durring a uti infection could really burn because it is more sensitive that is also the area where a women urinates from.  Then there is also an area called the labia majora where there is the "makom" as they call it in kalla classes which is where there is the opening to the cervix. There is skin is thicker and a bit less sensitive than the area above. Right before the opening of the cervix there is a piece of flesh that is really sensitive - I learnt it as the "tongue"   What they did to me is after they sewed up my clitoral hood they continued sewing down until my cervix and then they took the needle and poked the top of the area before they started sewing and they pulled it forward and they connected it to the "tongue" right before the opening of the cervix to make everything look "normal" 

Like this they won't be held responsible- so they thought 

Like this poeple would just say that this area never existed because it looks "normal" and they knew that as time would go on the area would shrink and "shorten" in other words destroy an extremely important function in my body. 

The clitoris and really any area of the vulva and vegina specifically is very connected hormonaly to the brain and pleasure creates specific signals in the brain and in truth pleasure, passion and excitement is really not only for intimacy- its also for any time a person gets excited about anything and they feel pleasure sensations flowing from the body - that is generaly from the clitoris - generaly when a person is in specific brainwaves I really beleive from my experience of unstoppable arousal till alot of it disintegrated was pleasure creates specific pleasure brainwaves in the brain. 

There is a link of someone explaining it. 

The issue is that most obgyns don't learn about this area and very often they learn about it without the clitoris (!) 

This year when I heard humans name I had in mind my midwife who harmed me 

The doula

All the many nurses in the room who many of them seemed excited about what was going to happen 

A room full of women 

A room full of denial 

If there was a thought in anyone's mind they didn't fight for my functions of my body 

A room full of women - who didn't speak up 

the lady I asked in the hospital later that night for a doctor to fix it up and getting more denial 

The denial and false education before my birth 

The denial and laughter of my fears from before birth 

The fear mongering that didn't belong to me 

All amalek 

My Pleasure is important 

My Safety is important 

Feeling safe is important 

My brain and consciousness before birth are important 

My choices are important 

My respect is important 

My intuition is important 

Anyone or anything that shame that,  puts that down is a spiritual amalek 

Yes we can be passionate 

Yes we CAN feel and be fully invested and committed 

Yes we can have physical pleasure 

Anyone that denys that is amalek 

May this energy be destroyed forever and all those involved take responsibility for their actions. And may this never happen to anyone else. 

Sometimes things just feel right - sometimes hearing that could feel like a jult in that area because it's true and it feels right and that's a good enough reason for conviction. 

It pains me that so many poeple are so uneducated about it and online there is alot of propaganda- this surgery should never happen to ANYONE especially not a birthing women. 

If anything stuck a cord in you please share - every signature makes a HUGE difference- the more noise we make the more change we can make. 

It's not just my voice 

It's the voice of the safety of every women.  

Not just birthing. 

This is the opposite of geula work which is specifically stepping into pleasure. 

One of the steps to bringing the geula is killing amalek - let's eradicate amalek together and may this NEVER EVER EVER EVER happen to anyone. 

We are all one joint consciousness- what happens to one person effects the entire world. 

Let's speak up and DEMAND that this should NEVER EVER EVER EVER!!!!!!! happen EVER again to any other human being 

Regardless of where she chooses to birth 

Regardless of who she chooses to be at her birth

Regardless of her "pockets" 

Regardless of her skim color or race or even if she is an American citizen 

Every women deserves pleasure 

Every women deserves a clitoris 

Every women deserves to have a safe birth without threats or fear mongering or manipulation or threats before, durring and after her birth. 

By signing this petition, by sharing this petition you are showing that you care 

You care for the pleasure of women 

You care for the future of birth  

You care for the future of women

You care for the future of humanity  

You care for the future of the geula 

You care for nothing like this happening EVER AGAIN 

You are ready to face the shame given to women since the sin of Chava (eve) in Gan eden (garden of eden) 

You are ready to let go of that shame and speak up about the safety of women giving birth  

You are ready to take away the blame from the women who has moments before just given birth and hold the midwife, doula and nurses responsible for the role they took in the story. 

You are ready to pull away the layers of denial, shame and trauma of so many women who blame themselves for what the hospital was responsible to do. 

You are ready to allow the anger to flow inside you and speak up and DO SOMETHING about it 

The wounds are deep 

I don't know of another women that had this done at birth 

However I do know of women that had some of this done by false information and having a misinformed "cosmetic surgery" called "labisplasty"- given by obgyns that aren't taught the functions of the clitorus in the human body. 
They claim that longer labia manora is shameful, manly, unfeminine etc. - there is nothing farther from the truth...

I do know that as a tradition they cut off the top area of a women in Africa- to limit or cut off her pleasure so that she shouldn't be unfaithful. 

This "fashioning" is just promoted differently with the same so intentional women by the people who cut this information out of the collage textbooks for a reason. 

Female anatomy belongs to WOMEN, wise village women 

There are no "founding fathers" of a women's body 

She deserves pleasure 

The greatest physical pleasure possible 

In this world 

No one has a right to deny that 

No one has a right to destroy that 

Ever.  Amein  

May I get the physical healing I need and may amalek be destroyed forever.  And may this never ever happen to any human being again