After agonizing deliveries and adoptions, and two babies in with the same couple that promised I could visit my children “anytime I was in the area”, I am completely cut off again. The only reason I consented to the second adoption was for my babies to be together and hoping it would allow me to see my oldest child again as well. This was far from the case although 24 hours prior they promised I would always be able to see them they immediately changed after the papers were signed as they always do. Mad at myself for being an Adoptimist. Mad that I went along with it. But now I have no rights yet again and my children are being held hostage and unwillingly biologically abused so these people can have the “picket fence family” they always wanted. At the mental and emotional cost of me and my girls. It’s disgusting and it should NOT BE LEGAL. I am prepared to fight this in court. I am asking for a contact order in provincial court, and being told my chances are slim to none because I got angry at the adopters. As if any MITHER who loved their children wouldn’t. We live in a time when birth mothers are criticized for wanting contact with their children, even being told their are “not a mother” as their lawyer has said numerous times to my face and that “I am a stranger to them” neither of which are true. What a horrific system for these children