Not knowing if I was his child my dad was still there when I was born and came to the hospital to see me everyday for almost a month.  My dad has made a few bad decisions in his life as everyone has.  It apparently is a part of life.  Even though he made the decision to change and has accomplished his goal that he set.  I still remain in the custody of my maternal grandfather and step grandmother.  My fathers' visitation has been suspended again.  I have seen him 3 times since December 2010.  I don't understand why I (3) years old am being punished.  I have bonded with my dad. He has been fighting for me for (3) long years.  My dad and paternal grandma had the best baby shower(the grandparents I'm with had nothing and in fact wouldn't take my mommy in when I was in her tummy)anyone could ever have. My dad had me baptized.  I have had the biggest birthday parties age 1, 2 & 3.(A large family of love)because my dad has a huge loving and family oriented family.  My dad has never put me in harms way.  He has never beat me, abused me or neglected me.  But he has yelled at me to stay away from the stove, don't spit and stay out of the road.  I have my own room at his house with enough toys and love for (20) kids.  I am the only child, grandchild and great grandchild.  I am not treated as an only child where I am so I miss out on a lot of attention as my step grandmother(non blood) has 3 adopted kids; all young and they are in their 50's. My dad is 24 so as I grow up whom is going to grow with me a 50 year old playing ball riding bikes, camping or my 24 year old dad.  I 'm gonna miss out on a lot.  I have what most kids always wanted and needed a "DAD" because most of them disappear.  Mine has been fighting forever and I'm afraid he's going to give up on me as (3) years of fighting; when he has done nothing to hurt me has taken it's toll. I don't want to be part of a statistic "Kids with no Father".  My maternal granfather whom I have to live with is the same person whom had issues and walked out on my mommy when she was little and repeated it with her (2) half sisters.  How do I know he won't walk out on me and then where will I be; with a non-blood step grandmother.    Who decides what is in my best interest.  Money is nothing to me and no one can predict what my future would be no matter who I live with.  I will make my own decisions at that time.  I am only allowed to see my dad 12 hours a month and that has been suspended and I can't see my real grandma either....  This is all going to effect me later in life and this has become very confusing to me as to why do they have me call him DADDY CHRIS?