Myself my three daughters and petitioning for my 1-year-old new son that I have full custody of the rest of the family that were at one time very daily active in their lives and now to a couple times a year if that, are affected by this in many ways. I will just tell you the gist of it, cuz if I went into details and mentioned every single one it would be a book.

 

 Me myself I've been effected by this in many ways trust of the justice system trust of authority figures like CPS and trust of promises even if the court ordered. My heart aches every day since they've been gone I have this emptiness in me that I can never fill. I feel like I failed as a mother a person I feel empathy of how they feel I feel them. I feel my whole world upside down. I feel like bad for enjoying everything with my new son that I had full custody of because I can't be with my daughters who really want to be with me. I feel guilt of anything emotionally mentally that they have been hurt due to this and that I cannot even get counseling with them to help fix it so they know it's not their fault and I love them and that I've been trying.

My son that's a little over a year old it affects him and robs him of having sisters and a family. It affects him by my problems of feeling guilty that I have him and not the girls. I do not know how it affects long-term will be but I try to get help for me and him which is the only thing I can do in my hands that I can do to my authority.

 

 

It affects my family their Grandma great grandma aunts and cousins a lot we were close family they were daily involved in their lives and now for at a couple hours two times a year if that. They were very involved in decisions and helping them learn and teach and supporting them growing and finding themselves and now it was just taken away in a blink of an eye. My family tells me I should have done something I could have why didn't I do this or that I should have been could have which causes us to break his family. Our family has not been close since the girls have been out our family slowly drifted apart over this time lots of us going to speak to each other and we used to be close very close daily. Holidays are not ever lately until my new son came around but it's still not the same the holiday stock because it hurts family it's not see the girls here.

 

 

My first daughter that I'm petitioning for Layla. It affects her cuz she hates me. I believe she said I was Superwoman too and gave up on her wondering why I didn't make it happen and why it says volunteering signed away rights. And with me not being able to explain why about the contact order that I was supposed to have and promises it's been eating at her the abandonment and hate. I feel that people should let her know that it's not healthy to have the same and try to have counseling for me and her so she can not have that abandonment and hate cuz long-term effects is going to be horrible and she is not redirected to not feel that way she's told you can feel how you want pretty much which I feel is very unhealthy in the long run.

My second daughter Josephine was hurt the worst she's my mini me I was her super Mom I could do anything I can make anything happen. Since we were told that I was going to have contact with them and be able to do things and visits me and her for months would write about what were the planning to do in that time happens cuz we're really excited I just told her to keep her faith in God and pray. Then we were told no and I couldn't say it wasn't my fault I couldn't say that I don't want this and I'm trying to fight for you girls it's not my choice I was not able to say that all the contact order or else my phone visits would be gone completely and mail which is what I still have to this day. I know she's confused it was hurt and she's one that has a hard time expressing her feelings. I know that she's confused now because I have my one-year-old son full time and she's wondering why not her too so she's going as extreme too thinking if she's a boy maybe. And I mean extreme because she's thinking of sex change she goes by a male's name now and she prefers to be called him instead of her by her peers friends and school teachers and medical.

 

 

My third daughter Delilah she was young she was 3 4 years old and now she don't remember one thing about me and her only songs that we seen on the phone and phrases. She tells me she hopes she can meet me one day and hang out and talk and catch up. But I cannot respond to that with any promises or say that I want to too. So that alone must be confusing and her and she was robbed of having a mother at crucial times of her growing up that needed her mother

I do not know the long-term effects on any of my children from this or myself or the new little baby brother. But you're not even allowed to have photos of or talk to or talked about him as much unless they ask which kills me inside. What obviously I can assume for long-term effects if it stays this way is the heat and resentment than it was so feel and inside her and not knowing and she will probably stay away from me even if I tried to be around her cuz she had never had any support saying to go and talk to your mom let her know how you feel and listen to her too. I can just imagine the effects on her relationships in the future from that and it's not good.

I feel the long-term effects is going to be feeling abandoned self-esteem not good enough relationship problems lack of family. I'm sure trust issues and just being robbed of certain things that were positive and future things that can still happen that are positive and love and a family again.

I want my family back I want family events and holidays again happy and smile also without that it will rob my son that's one years old I've ever experiencing any of it ever.

What's the girls back I would right away start counseling for each individual one to let him know that it's not their fault and some is that that is my fault I will try to fix and own up to it and fix it. I know the family would be back together lots of it they would enjoy their new little brother hello brother would have three wonderful older sisters to look up to and have that sibling relationship not broken. They get to have a mother figure one that no one can replace unconditional love no one can ever do it's something you're feeling hurt and then they won't feel abandoned they'll see that I fought for them I fought in one and this super mom won't be a villain no more that didn't want them help me super mom that'll be the super Mom that had kryptonite in a hard time but never stopped and won't.

 

 

I've twice since 2019 filed content of court by not following the court order I was rejected both times saying that I was never supposed to be promised that they don't know how any judge would allow this or make a court order knowing it can never be followed. I have attempted with Devin and family services about the court order and why it's not being followed just to be shut out and said that I have no grounds even with that like I'm an idiot. I had more things taken away from me and I'm not supposed to let my girls know that I want them and I'm fighting for them because it might make them not like them or family services. So they all want me to look like a bad guy or else will take away my phone visits and mail contacting. I did not know that there was even a possibility I was shut down by everything people said there's no way someone can reinstate the parental rights until a couple months ago I read an article that the governor in 2020 made reinstatement of parental rights especially parents that were promised like me contact orders and not gotten them. But I did not know about this until just recently and that's why now I'm going to do it because it's my last hope and I'm so happy that this is there now this option.