Dear Final Exit, I became a member of Final Exit Network as of 10/22/2014. I did look into compassion and choices but they wouldn't work for me, because I cannot move to Washington or Vermont or Oregon. I also really looked into Death With Dignity, with the same results. I would have to relocate which would be impossible. My pain cannot be controlled by any other type of meds. The only reprieve that I'll ever get is through a peaceful death, I've been a prisoner of this monster for 46 years, who has ruined everything in my life and I just want to be free of this monster within. The monster is getting meaner. as everyday passes. I don't want the monster to keep on hurting me anymore, I had enough. I'm a sound minded person, with the ability to make a choice to end my own suffering, I never woke up one day and decided to end it. Took a lot of thought to make this tough decision. I would like to enter me into your program please! I'm completely housebound and that's why I choose you, because the exit guide would come to my house (if necessary) to evaluate me to see if I qualify. Please help me! I have severe form of Cerebral Palsy, it seems be getting worse, I always had C.P all my life. The severe rigidity in my extremities is so painful that I'm in constant pain all the time, it severely interferes with life it takes away my dignity, independence, and personal freedom that other people take for granted. My diazepam doesn't seem to work anymore and I cannot take any other medication, because it makes my spasticity worse, I go completely out of control rigidity wise. The doctor had recommended that I have an MRI done to see what's causing all this rigidity,I went to get an MRI done but they couldn't do it because I cannot hold still, which didn't work. I'm going back to see my doctor in a few weeks to have her write out a statement, regarding my condition. I've seen several neurologist throughout my life and they couldn't help me. They all told me to keep doing what you been doing" Physically I'm so drained from this constant pain. I made a choice to want to contact you to help, to end this intolerable pain. I had a full life but it's time for me to leave this earth, so I can have everlasting peace. Can you imagine a blood pressure cuff getting so tight that t to help me end my it made you cry, that's how it feels most of the time. When does a person say "I had enough" Please I beg you to take a walk in my shoes, How would you like to be dependent on everyone for your basic needs? I'm hurting all the time. the doctor's cannot do anything to make my life any better. My quality of life is very poor, I absolutely cannot do anything for myself, can't feed, dress, bathe, do my own teeth. The quality of my life is unacceptable. I have Disk Degeneration Disease, known as Arthritis of the spine, neck, left thigh. My C2 is moderate and my C3 is mild, as I stated before I just cannot take any medication except for diazepam fo spascity , it doesn't work well. My back is just going to get worse as I age. The spinal  column is narrowing  casing more pain, I wake up 4 to 10 times a night to flip over it's seriously putting a dent in sleeping. What I mean by the spinal column is narrowing, the disk are getting thickening, I found out July 1st when I went into the hospital for seven hours. I WENT to the doctor a few weeks later to confirm what I have. Nothing can be done. Please free me from this prison without bars, I WANT MY FREEDOM. If you don't except me into your program it would be cruel and inhumane of you to force me to go on suffering, I know about the strict  laws but I DON'T NEED assistance to self deliver but I do need a place to go. Caregiver WON'T ALLOW IT IN HER PLACE, I CANNOT SELF STARVE OR QUIT DRINKING! I respect the feelings of my family. I'm a non-terminal case that's the reason why Compassion and choices won''t work for me. I'm indeed terminally in pain.

 

 

 

 

 

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