As I sit here, with all these thoughts in my head. You said you wouldn't do it again yet here we are. The same place that we have been time and time again. All the time, you are able to ignore everything that is going on. While I sit here dealing with all the brokeness that your decisions caused. Thoughts swirling round and round is it worth or is it not? The life that has been mine for the last 15 years maybe crashing down around me. How did we get here again I will never understand. Why LORD, Why? I don't want to feel this pain no more. I don't want be in this place again, but the choice is not mine. Every time that we end up in this place, it tears me apart piece by piece.