Marriage on meth
Meth stole your heart before we even meet. I told myself that our love was strong, and that one day you would love me more. Our love never had a chance. As our lives continued on, your love for meth only grew strong. Meth took our love and made it go so wrong. GOD gave us 3 beautiful children along the way. But now we are left alone without you. Meth took more from us than can ever be told. I wish you would have just left meth alone. You put more effort into your relationship with meth than you ever did our family. I was so wrong to ever think that we could compete with this drug called meth. We could not offer what this drug did to you. Our love was never enough to make you feel complete. I wished i had known that meth was your number one priority before i gave you my heart. I could have saved the hurt from so many lives. I feel like i got trapped in a game that was already lost. So many lies that i can not list. There was always some secret that could not be told. I wish i would have known. Maybe i would have changed it or maybe not. I feel like i deserved an honest shot. I hate the person i have become because of meth. I have never done this drug yet it had this profound effect. Meth is truly satan's go to trick to ruin a family quick.
I wrote this poem for my husband who is struggling with addiction. I am Really struggling with emotions today. I love this man but he chooses drugs Over everything. I pray that GOD will put him in a place of desperation where he will surrender to GOD.