Hi,

How its going? I have officially finished third year Psychology and Sociology. I have barely left the house in 2 months. Trying to improve my grammer and spelling and essay writing skills. I joined a re sit summer programme and got 1 on 1 support to pass some assignments which didn't go to plan. I re wrote a case study for Psychobiology. 1,500 words and succinct is important for the assignment. I barely thought I would be able to get through it. I struggle with panic and procrastination and doubts. Then I did a 43 question multiple choice exam which was 1 hour 15 minutes in uni on a computer I got my own room as I have an ILP which gives me extra time because of my social anxiety and anxiety and dyslexia. Then I had a few days out to keep me right. I go cold water swimming now with familly which is really fun and life changing. Great for loosing weight too. Then I did a 3,000 word essay re sit. It was a very hard question. Feminist standpoint theory and strong objectivity from Sandra Harding. I feel awful today woke up at 6am last three days. Managed to start work at 8.30am in the morning. Which is very early for me but I need to try to start work at 9am every day next year as 4th year will be hardwork. I felt I did well in my exam I usually suffer anxiety while talking or even being in the uni for the exam makes it harder to think and focus. And to major disappointment and negaitivity and self loathing at how lazy I have been and that I did't get a 62% like i did in second year. I have a migraine today and feel exhuasted. This has nothing to do with chronic fatigue anymore I dont suffer from the illness anymore. But the mental effects of studying make me feel like my brain can't think and it makes it 10 times harder. I forget how to write an essay and spend 4 days struggling to start. My grammer is still not great and I have to read over things alot and I have had 4 different people help me but I still don't completely get it. I made truffles today. Hoping to loose 3 stone as I need to change my life but want it to happen gradually I have a friend who is a personal trainer or training to be one. So I have done session with her which is great! I have a Haralambos and Holborn textbook for Sociology which I will use for the disseration also have two other textbooks I have used or trying too and a libuary one on psychopathology which has been helpful for the case study.