Hi I am annoyed today I am planning to get two piercing a helix one on top of my ear and my nose. But someone said it would look digusting and it did last time and it didn't suit me. So told them to piss off and its my body and suppose to be my life. To keep their opinions to themselves and stop being rude. As its unfair. I have no personal choice I let it affect me but I dont care now I can do as I want regardless if people think new clothes suit me or they like them on me or not. Are they me? I am 27 years old not a 5 year old. Everything I do people have views and opinions and disagree with me. What will people think If they hear your epic meltdown? Wow who cares. Emotion is suppose to be suppressed and when mine comes out its so extreme, no one thinks I am normal or are more concerned what others will view my meltdown like. Stopping too much emotion is great for strength and to get on with it. I am blamed for everything and its my fault I don't get 60 or above on my essay. Marks mean everything I am smart my illness made me slow and it means I am stupid now. My major impulse control fires out me like a bullet and everyone is so surprised with the things I say and they are surprised why I have extreme anxiety then I am suddenly better and it all gets released with frustration and take all my words seriously and look at me like I am crazy or a monster. Told to cut out my shit and getting so stressed as its not good for me. Told off for speaking like that when really I mirrored how I felt about my bad mark and looked concerned, oh I am going crazy from that meltdown. What will people think? hahah my behvaiour I act like a child, seemly. Sure it was out of proportion as I have no time to make it good now. I added in 400 words so thats why I am behind and I shouldnt have- no sympthy just instruction this isn't my life its theirs. Sorry I have a major stress problem :(

I suffered with traumatic leg syndrome for 5 weeks where I kicked my legs in bed for hours on end before I could calm down and sleep I would feel energy stuck in my legs and I would have to shake it quite violently out. Re current nightmares for 6 weeks about the lady I worked with trying to hurt me. She was a horrid bully who only thought her life was horrid. Now I sometimes get energy in my head so I need to try relax for other people and never talk negatively again cause people don't like it seemly. I need to tap my feet to let energy get out and scream at times.