I apologize I was wrong! I am very sorry!

FIRST OFF! I want to say I am very sorry for getting that wrong.please forgive me I can admit when I'm wrong I recieved an email that stated the opp wanted to terminate the investigation and I seen LECA said they terminated the investigation they didn't mean the whole investigation they were terminating the opp's right to investigate there own officer as both opp and SIU we're both active in the investigation and now it is just the SIU and when you think about it it makes sense that they dropped out considering what the officer had done and the fact that he lied under oath saying I kicked him for them to fight for his innocence on that like they would like to and the SIU find out otherwise then there on the hook for his mistakes he made and there were a lot and some very serious I know they like to stand behind there partners and coworkers there brothers and sisters of the shield but it's not worth them risking themselves over his choices so I mis read the letter and thought once again I was ignored mistreated with no one caring about the truth or what happened to me at the hands of our police I'm greatfull they are taking the time to investigate the matter for me and for the people because I am not living so it hurts to see the ones who are there to uphold the law and enforce it to treat me like I'm nothing and what happened to me who cares as long as they look good right that's sad it hurts to be honest and it's really messed up my head some stressing that I'm not heard or taken seriously and most of them don't care a bit but yes even if the opp terminate there end the SIU will continue thank god I mean I'm willing to take a life detector test to prove how serious I am if I have to I know I'm not lying I know I have been truthful and I know by me standing my ground for accountability maybe it will help save someone else from this officer or make other officers who are like him think twice before treating people this way I also do it for the officer himself honestly meaning I'm having this investigated and want to see him held accountable for his own self because what happens next time he does this to someone he may kill them I know that's strong words but I mean it I was telling him please sir my head and heart can't take anymore my vision was blurry I was having pains in my chest for him to say I don't care and keep going that's crazy I have an irregular heart beat as well if it skips I fall over twitching so that's scary and allmost breaking my arm I had to wiggle my arm into place so it didn't break and sat right down so he knew there was no threat and he said I don't care as my arm was about to break there for I'm doing this before he ruined his own life or loses his freedom for making a very stupid choice I even gave him multiple warnings sir your going to kill me if you don't stop and sir I'm serious my head and heart can't take anymore and sir your seriously going to kill me if you don't stop to hear I don't care that's crazy and maybe he needs some real serious help I mean we're all human right but yes I will not stop doing all I can about this until I have exhausted every single option possible and exploded every avenue to stop something serious from happening in the future to me or anyone else I will go door to door and paper petition it takes less on paper I will make media videos everything to ensure mine your and everyone's safety the best I possibly can do yes I do apologize for reading that wrong I wanted to come on and own up to my mistake it wasn't fair of me to jump the gun and think everyone is willing to treat me the same way as the rest I am very greatfull for there help and all your help for supporting me through all of this because at the end of the day I'm fighting for us all for transparency and accountability for those in the wrong as we have to when we are right I have been through a lot it's crazy to be honest and I'm glad I'm not worse off then I am from it all so I'm greatfull for that and think I can maybe one day get back to myself I hope I have a ways to go with all the help I can get but I won't give up I will do what it takes to see that in the end were all good and things get better with every day anyways thank you all again and please forgive me