This was my second baby last December, my first child’s Adoptive Parents had been trying to conceive again, and when they found out I had had our daughters sister, became very interested in her, and only when I mentioned adoption did they make the other wise stated “too far” journey 1.5h to the hospital I was in. I never considered adoption this pregnancy but wanted desperately to be with both of my children and thought if I did give them another child there was no way they would cut me off like they did my first child. A desperate mother wanting what’s best for her children. I wanted my oldest daughter to have a sister, so baldy and I did it for her even though they made many promises I knew they weren’t going to keep and sure enough on my way home (30+ hours drive) I wasn’t even allowed to stop and say goodbye not knowing when I’d be able to return. I guess they’d already decided they wouldn’t let me return. I’ve been and Adoptimist, to a fault.