I am stoked that we finally made it to 250 supporters! It has been a long, painstakingly targeted campaign.  I can’t just simply paste in my petition link everywhere. I don’t want to appear to be a scammer or spammer, or annoy creators of pages and FB groups and yet all the work I put into making thoughtful, relevant comments along with the petition link in order to feel like I’m contributing instead of hijacking someone else’s post still shows that I am not believed by the majority of those who take a look at my petition. Why am I saying this?

Over 4,000 have viewed my petition and yet only 250 people have chosen to support me. That’s not 250 signatures. It’s a mix of signatures and shares. That shows we have a lonnnng, long way to go to dismantle white supremacy and stop silencing Black folks on Facebook. I definitely cannot do it alone. But I will keep on sharing  this petition online in spaces where I am likely to find empathetic and supportive people. Maybe you can help me if you have the time and the energy. I would SO appreciate it! 

The photo above is a screenshot from the white admin who kicked me out of the “professional” mom group of mostly liberal, affluent white women. It’s a very diverse group ( except for the moderators who are all white) yet none of the Black and Brown women I reached out to have replied to me as of this writing. That’s how powerful this white woman is. They are scared to be associated with me, a nobody. It didn’t matter that they may have admired me from a distance as I shared bits and pieces of my story with them. Believe me, it is a definite mind-f*ck when you think about it. Even the Blasians Facebook group that I’m a member of, no one has lent me their support even though I posted the link in there and have been a member for over a decade now. It doesn’t really say anything about me; it sadly speaks to the lack of cohesion among us; that’s why I was forced to find community in predominantly white spaces where my issues would never be centered.

Going back to the screenshot, you can see that the admin had an issue with ME, and attacked my character AFTER she had kicked me out, so I had no way to defend myself. Another member was nice enough to share the screenshot with me but she doesn’t feel safe enough to support me by signing, it seems. That’s how powerful white supremacy is. Instead of standing with someone who was obviously wronged, many of the highly educated Black women in the group choose to act as though nothing happened for fear of losing access to this powerful network and brain trust.

I explained in a previous update why the white admin resented me more than the message. For those of you who are reading my updates for the first time, let me reiterate the reasons. I believe it’s because I stick out like a sore thumb in the group as an unemployed mixed-race Black woman ( thankfully I didn’t share my official autism diagnosis with the group, but I did mention I was undergoing a formal evaluation). I was very well-spoken ( therefore I’m a threat) and I did touch on some sensitive topics. Sometimes when I felt like I was being ignored, I would deactivate my profile for weeks or even months at a time. Even though I explained in various posts that I take mental health breaks from Facebook from time to time, this admin twisted my words to paint a picture of a cowardly "s#!+ stirrer” who wanted to post anonymously and then back out to avoid any fallout. She claimed she wouldn’t have a problem if any other person "without a history of backing out” ( to paraphrase her) had posted those anti-genocide lyrics. Her reasoning is BS because 1. That was the first time I posted anonymously about any hot-button topic and 2. I already knew what she really thought of me when I was lying in a hospital bed and posted about what I thought was a near-death experience when an intra-abdominal abscess ruptured six weeks after my c-section. A member of the group felt sorry for me and asked the admin if she or someone else ( a fellow mod) could start a meal train for me, and her response was a very cold and unfriendly "Feel free to start one”. 

Later on she tried to make excuses for being so terse and tactless, but the damage was already done; I confirmed that day in April 2022 that she saw me as undeserving and less than.

In a sense, she’s right! Over 4,000 people have seen my petition but very few have signed it. They undoubtedly see me as undeserving and less than. That’s what white supremacy aims to do.  Even one self-proclaimed antiracist activist - a white woman- claims it’s because I don’t use my real name. She was worried about risking her reputation as an activist by signing my petition yet she claimed my cause was worthy!  She wanted me to use her infographic cartoon on this petition, yet she didn’t want to sign it!  I had to explain to her that I have young children whose privacy I need to protect, and that I had signed an NDA for a very unfair settlement I received for being sexually harassed by a coworker in 2018. So no, it’s not safe to post my photos or real name just yet.  

Thank you for reading this far! I am grateful for whatever you can do to spread the word. All that it takes for evil to triumph in this world is for good people to do nothing. I humbly continue to ask for your help. I’m not the kind of person who would feel comfortable asking for monetary donations,  but a signature is as good as gold. I hope you have a great day!