All help is needed and appreciated, my life is in danger! (Please share) 

Hello, My name is Cristofer Yordan Carrillo Ayala and I am seeking immediate help. 

All my life since I can remember I have suffered discrimination and physical attacks in Mexico due to my sexual orientation. From a very young age I even suffered attacks from the same students from the schools where I was studying, even one of them when I was in high school came close to killing me, as it hit me in the head with a rock just because I was gay. I was also stigmatized and followed by people from different groups or cartels because my dad was a producer in the technical part in Mexico, working at a television station. It is a very recognized production, Televisa. Very well known in Latin America and Spanish/Latino community.

In other words, because I was his son, I became a public figure. Yes, I participated in tele novellas as an actor and had a large social media presence at the time. 

I tried to cope with my life with many verbal, psychological and physical attacks for all the reasons mentioned before. 

Then, My father, my rock, and my best friend, passed away. It was the hardest time for me. 

Until one day in 2019 I was kidnapped, sexually abused, beaten, torturing me almost to death. After I was released, I made the report, the authorities and the police never did anything. I was hiding because these bad people kept threatening me and following me. I no longer felt free and safe in Mexico to go out or continue my normal life. In addition to the fact that this was a trauma that marked my life, I decided to leave Mexico to visit Canada. I needed to get to know new place as I’ve heard wonderful things about this country. I needed to clear my mind and see if I felt safe in Canada. 

When I landed here, I felt for the first time in a while at home. This city Montreal made me feel safe and secure at first, and I decided to ask for asylum or refuge by presenting my case to the immigration authorities and showing them my evidence. I did not have a very good experience with my first lawyer to represent me in the face of immigration. Unfortunately, I only wasted my money as this lawyer who took my case, she guaranteed that it was possible to succeed in this process for a large amount of money as at that time she kept saying to me “these immigration processes are too expensive and take A lifetime”. On top of all, paying for lawyers was not easy at all at that time. 

I arrived in Canada in 2019 with the hope of being able to get ahead and that my life would change but above all to feel safe and secure, but with the passage of time everything changed. Then Covid happened and everything really changed. I tried to give a chance to a boy with whom I fell in love and he asked me to marry me a few months after we met. However, after a month of marriage he began to be aggressive with me to the point that he hit me and threatened me by telling me that he would deport me because I was as any Mexican. I was very afraid of him and of going to the authorities because I believed that everything he yelled at me was true. I didn't know what authority to turn to or speak to until he disappeared from my life and I couldn't locate him anywhere. He had a lot of addictions and aggressive tendencies that he was struggling with and was or is involved with not very good influences. Some time later he sent me emails with more threats. I still don't know where he is because I'm very afraid of seeing his face again after the damage he did to me the last time I saw him. 

Here in Montreal I have suffered verbal attacks on the subway with school boys who have even spit on my face on many occasions and have yelled things at me about my sexual orientation. 

Ive been here in Canada for almost 5 years and for as long as I can recall homophobic discrimination and racial injustice has happened but more often when doing government applications to establish a stable status here in Montreal, Quebec. I considered myself already permanent resident as I cannot go back to Mexico as if I do, unfortunately I won’t survive. Here a picture of the refusal letter to prove that it shows they did not read or check the evidence. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And because of their prejudice, for sure homophobia biased and discrimination I was not even considered to be accepted for this application. I was already in the process of applying for permanent residency since I meet the requirements. 

I’ve been a good resident, don’t have no criminal record, and I’ve never been involved in any illegal activities in this country. Im very involved with helping others and being of service to others. Especially those in need. I’m a very spiritual person, love to go to church saint Joseph oratory and I enjoy the LGBTQ community that has welcomed me with open arms. One of my favourite places to go, is cabaret mado to see jimmy Moore Impressionism shows of Taylor Swift and I really love attending his shows because it makes me feel at home, safe and happy to sing and dance to songs by some of my favorite singers but above all to have a good time and relax In addition to the fact that he is a good impressionist artist.

I was working in many places but I found one of my favorite places C.A.R.E where I love to work and share time with my clients who for me are like my best friends, working as a caregiver with severe mobility problems and special needs, has give me new meaning and confidence. Being with them I feel safe and secure, we talk, we laugh, we cry, we share many experiences, in short I love to help them in everything. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I also love working with them at the Massawippi camp because it is a very nice experience that makes me feel part of a family. sharing full days with them, doing all kinds of activities from artistic to sports, walking with them hand in hand, singing and spending dreamy evenings next to people as wonderful as the campers are, I have no way of explaining what I feel, I can only describe it by saying that it is wonderful and they fill you with love.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I also work at Benjamin & Vanda Treiser Maison shalom as a caregiver and they also fill me with their good vibes, I love sharing time with them, talking, doing exercises and playing many board games but above all sharing the experiences that they live every day in their daycare centers or in their jobs, they are people that I value and love very much because in addition to having a big heart they always have a smile for you. 

I would also like to return to one of my passions which is dancing. In Mexico, I used to professionally dance in tours and in special events. It is one of the activities that gives me happiness when I’m on stage and being able to feel that I am someone else when I hear a song. Im able to express it to people with my body movements, I plan to take up dance courses again professionally in Quebec after finishing the summer camp in massawippi and to be able to contribute a little of my skills in Montreal, Quebec and with the skills I’ve acquired in turn, can put it into practice with my clients and friends with severe mobility problems and special needs who would love to learn too.

So in 2023 I received a letter from immigration in which I had to appear for an interview and I thought it was good news. I’ve been waiting for my permanent residence since I applied as a refugee in 2020 during the pandemic. I figured the process was slow because it was just In that season. Then, in October 2023 I went to immigration and by protocol they arrested me saying that I had not appeared for their calls since 2021 because my case had been abandoned and I did not follow up.

Yet again, I was not informed properly as the lawyer I had for this case, did not tell them I’ve changed addresses, was going through domestic violence with my husband, and I had to change lawyer because he was asking for a lot of money for a very bad job. So I guess for me refusing to work with him, he decided to keep this information that they needed me to present myself and told them I abandoned the case which it wasn’t true. After immigration allowed me to stay or so it seems, and it appeared I was in the process to be allowed to regain the possibility to finish application for permanent residency as my new lawyer was helping me. 

We started another process as soon as possible called pre removal risck assessment (PRRA) from which I received a response on April 25 of this year, I was summoned again to an immigration interview to give me the results and I thought that everything would be positive. 

It was not. 

The result was that my process had been rejected saying that I did not have enough evidence and that they considered that my life was not in danger in my country. (Read picture of letter) Since the kidnapping and all I went through, to them, it was considered in the refusal letter that “could happen to anyone, from Mexico so I had to return to my country ”. Very strange response and very racist attitude towards my situation. As if my life and all the years I’ve been in this country, paying taxes and living an honourable and fulfilling life, being of service always to those on needs as it gives me meaning to help others plus safe for once in my life. 

As if my life didn’t matter, that I’m just a number to them. And in Mexico if I’m back, I’m dead. And it’s unfortunate, but this government is very aware of that too. And still made this decision to send me to my death. They gave me a deportation order which is for May 21. On May 2 I have to present my plane ticket back to Mexico at immigration so they can see it. However, I really don’t want to as I already know my fate is going to be if I return nor can I afford these extra expenses right now. I’m with a new lawyer now who is doing everything he can in the short amount of time to stop deportation and me leaving to Mexico.

And here is where I really need your help. 

Your signatures on this petition matters a lot. Even more if you can share it with your friends, family, colleagues, social media platforms so we can achieved at least 2000 signatures. It will help me and my lawyer bring a strong case and extend the deportation of better yet stop it. So that I can finish my permanent residency application and stay here, my home. 

I hope I can count with your kindness and generosity by signing up, and sharing. You can save my life by helping me spread my story, this petition and help me stay alive in Canada. 

Not that it is a requirement, but is highly appreciated if you can donate to help me 
Donate to help my lawyer fee it’s a PayPal link or e-transfer here ���:

email for e-transfers:

carrillo.ayala.cristofer.yordan@gmail.com

PayPal link:

https://www.paypal.me/criscarrilloayala?locale.x=en_CA

Thank you so much for your signature and support. GOD bless you and may Father GOD repay your kindness and multiply it. ��❤️

Love, 

Cris