Hi all. Just a quick update. First of it took 10 days to get through to atu. The hospital. They don't call you. I know nothing about what happens to my son Ste if I don't go there. Stephen had an accident was taken to A&E but I was not informed until 8 days later when I asked what happened the dreaded word was thrown at me. Data protection that is why I was not informed what a crock. And only because I finally got through to the switchboard. I visited Stephen yesterday with two amazing supportive friends and advocates. They were shocked when they saw my son, But they have not seen him at his worst. As I have. Ste had a black eye. He was so drugged up. He was yellow. He was so emancipated. He dropped to his knees while standing up, and holding on to me. As we were saying goodbye, he just broke my heart I was in tears and he was in tears. He was screaming crying mummy no no no no go. Mummy Ste go home london mummy. Ste go mummy. I been diagnosed with not just depression but anxiety panic attacks and ptsd , so after my visit yesterday I feel so low and so broken hearted. No worst pain then the pain you feel as a s***t mother that how I feel, I feel hopeless and useless. No kidding when they say love hurts, but the love for your children is totally unconditional and when you see your child in such pain and distress it's just to much. I don't mind telling you I feel so hopeless and so Ill today, usually after my visits to my son it takes me 3 days to recover, this institutions should burn down. I need m son home. I need to bring him home so I can look after him and bring my baby back to health. No one listens. Simon Stevens. Jane comings hazel Watson you guys suck. Get my son out of that hell. You would not want your children there. Or at any atu. It's not fit for an animal to live in. They treating my son worst then animal a caj d animal. They call it assessment treatment ? A what? You might ask. No it's a pharmaceutical treatment. Inhuman. Islington again lucking on enthusiasm, and lucking in being forceful with the atu. They letting atu decide my sins feature . We were going the right path and since august when atu decided to take back the decision to let my son go they are running scared again. They letting a little man up in clacton decided my sons future.