Hello and thank you for continuing to support this petition I havnt updated for a while because I had hoped I could share some good news with everyone . There was a chance Rachael could have been moved to a hospital in Manchester which would have been an amazing outcome. However they hospital returned with a ridicoulous reason, in my opinion, as to why she couldn't move I have wrote a letter and would like to share it in hope that the right people will listen, can help and also to raise awareness for what it is really like for families and mental health sufferers in the care of our authorities Thanks again for your support and please read and share "Hello I cant make Rachaels meeting today as I couldn't get the time off work. We will be visiting on Saturday I would like the team to discuss a few things though 1) I heard Rachael was not accepted at Cheadle hospital because they feel another move would destress her. I do understand this but Rachael gets distressed quite a lot and this was never an issue before. Nobody considered how she may react in the past when taken away from her family and nobody really knows how she will react again She went from home to Preston Royal, Warrington, Stafford, Middlesbrough and Newcastle. Not once was moving hospital and issue to the NHS I feel they arnt accepting her because I appeared on a BBC Panorama documentary which told the story of how Sarah Green lost her life in their care. I am feeling this is more personal than medical Rachael needs to be closer to home and maybe if the reply was she isn't ready for low secure then I would have been more inclined to believe it was a fair assesment I believe that things will never change if Rachael is kept away from us. We are exhausted as a family financially, physically and emotionally. I cant even begin to understand how all this feels for Rachael. Whilst I agree that she has improved since going to Alnwood there is no possible way we can begin to predict what the out come will be if she moved It's been two years now. Forget for a few minutes that you are a social worker, physcoligist , speech and language therapist, peadiatrition, whatever your job role is. Think about how you would feel if your child was taken away from you. So far away. Five hours travelling to see your baby for maybe a few hours in a small room. Then leaving them not knowing what the next phone call will be How would your child feel without you hugging and kissing them before bed, in the morning or at the school gate? It hurts so much. You can't even imagine unless you have been through it. It's almost like a bereavement. There is no way anybody can Say that separation from love one's is the right way to be dealing with this 2) My son ************* is so scared to come and visit Rachael. He is anxious and worried. He doesn't like the journey up. It's been a long time since they saw her. One home visit in two years is not really progress. My youngest daughter is used to this being her life now and in a way is desensitised from all this ******* struggles and is very down. She missed her sisiter We all feel our relationships are under immense stress and pressure. I've hardly spoken to Rachael recently. Imagine if you couldn't even tell your child how much you loved them every day . Couldn't see their face or hold them. 3) please can we not come up with anymore pointless examples of what this is like. It's not like a physical illness and someone needing a special operation in a hospital away from home. If it was provisions to look after us would have been made and she would have been returned home She is not stress free in hospital as one lady said in a previous meeting. How can she be when the biggest stress is not having family around? Tribunals held at 10:30 in the morning. No wonder I can't attend I would need to set off at 5 am 4).Now Rachael is an adult is PRN the answer to calm her down? Shouldnt she be given skills to deal with this. It's time for her to move on and try to live in the community with the right support Rachael has made more attempt at ending her own life since being in the care of the authorities and went in with maybe a few cuts from self harming. Her head is a terrible mess. If she had done that much damage to herself at home. I would have been accountable and probarbly investigated as to why she is so damaged physically. What would happen if she succeeds in ending her life in the care of authorities Would "lessons be learnt" a common phrase heard so much. Mental health is a mess and although it's "the system" That doesn't help people. We have missed two very important years of her life please help us to not miss even more. 5) Acronyms mean nothing to us as we are not proffestionals so when you tell me Rachael is being seen by..........followed by letters. It means nothing to us Please don't think I am not grateful for the care she has been given I truly am but there doesn't seem to be much progress on getting her closer to home. This also isn't aimed at any particular service or individual person but you all have a duty of care to do what is best for her and I feel she is being failed Once again though I would like to express how thank ful. I am that she has been looked after by an amazing team at Alnwood. You are all wonderful and truly special people that will always have a place in my heart and I will always hold you in high regard. However I believe its time for our local autorities to bring her closer to us and work at giving her opportunities to get back into the community. There is no progress and no adult life skills taught in four walls. She needs to be in real life situations. I didn't learn how to be a mum by reading books and going to classes. I learned from real life. She doesn't get those experiences and if it all goes wrong then she will be detained again but please at least let's try and not presume because it's the unknown she can't be given a chance. None of us actually know what will happen I will pass this email on too a few people and hope I am heard and plans can be made and followed through. Tara Palin