When it comes to my past it still haunts me. The choices I have made. But I refuse to be condemned my whole life. People change people get sick and tired of the lifestyle. I got tired of a addiction that has nearly took up half of my life. But I refuse to allow Child Protective Services to determine I’m guilty before proven innocent. To determine on what I might of been I said  MIGHT of been abused detached suffering from addiction mother. Those were the coping skills and tools I knew at the time. Well god bless my soul over the years and suffering I am a reformed Mother, Daughter, Woman and fighter. That’s not going to stop fighting for what I know I am today a good mother a great mother not prefect . Still a lot to learn but I’m not going to let Cps Dcfs defame my  character any longer. Especially when they say things like we need to find a placement because your son is highly adoptable. The statistics say that  2020 to 2022 are in the adoption market for males. CPS incentive is not keeping families together but there money driven. Money is the root to all evil.  There just going on my past. From 2007 . I had my son Jb on 7/21/20.  Drug free but he had to stay in the hospital because they induced my labor because I had preeclampsia. (Preeclampsia can lead to eclampsia, a serious condition that can have health risks for mom and baby and, in rare cases, cause death. If your preeclampsia leads to seizures, you have eclampsia. The only cure for preeclampsia is to give birth). Preeclampsia and related hypertensive disorders of pregnancy impact 5-8% of all births in the United States. Most women with preeclampsia will deliver healthy babies and fully recover. So when they told me this I made a decision to wait two days they told me on Friday I said I’m going to wait. Then Monday we can go forth with inducing my labor. So My choice I made at the time not knowing the severity of the risks doctor that’s fine just take it easy let’s schedule for Monday. He was one day and one pound over from not being a preemie they kept him in the hospital the night before they released him they called us and told us to come stay in the hospital so they can watch us take care of him we did all that next morning as we were walking out with the baby in car seat almost 50 feet from entrance we were handed a warrant for our baby. For neglect   And safety. Now two years later there trying to terminate our rights saying that we don’t have a bond. Well the day after he turned a month he was placed with my daughter then a couple weeks after that we broke all rules and he was living with us for 11 1/2 months. We bonded we provided we loved him we nurtured him we did everything and more what parents do when your kids can’t fend for themselves we were so happy and in love with our big family mind you I have 4 other kids . I think that was probably the most happiest we were as a family . Also probably in my life with my family always going to be an addict but drug free . So I’m fighting for my rights to somebody that made me be a better person that made me understand my purpose in life why I am on this earth ti be my kids mother completely fully involved and not giving up. I feel I know he needs me as much as I need him. He’s my drive my determination my will my change god put him in my life to know I have a purpose and that here’s my chance. #guiltybeforeproveninnocent#