I am in third year going into fourth year got results back. My mental health has been awful all summer and through my re sits. My anxiety awful haven't got the grades I wanted or should have seemly I could of got an A. I am not at undergraduate level for some assignments. Very upsetting need to sort myself out for next year and stop mopping about. Get my head in gear. I have got a flat now and could join a sports team netball at university. Everyone is managing great with the workload and results I have done terrible I was a mess during the re sits I could do nothing to change that. My references are still rubbish I'm sorry. Applying for jobs now. I always feel the negatives in experiences and people. My Papa died this summer and been dealing family wise with emotional stuff to do with that. My writing is simple compared to what I produced in 4th year english and at sighthill college. I let my anxiety, mental health over power me. I can do alot better. I need to stop looking at my flaws and only focus on my strengths. Listen to my own opinions. University is suppose to be impossible for people to achieve the unachievable. I need to raise to that challenge. I need to try let go off all the hurt inside me.