This has been the happiest and most terrifying times of my life.  I have so much love for all of my children.   I can not wrap my head around why people want to tear us apart.   It's sick.  Starting with prenatal care-less.  They tuned me out.  Ignored my request and concern.  They already pre judged us.  Set up for failure.   Literally made my daughter fight for life since birth.  Constantly apply pressure and put me in uncomfortable high stress situations. 

My daughter deserves proper health care and treatment for her neonatal injuries.   Not an Observations team from community government services.  

Times attacked from all angles.   24/7 fight or flight mode.  I am exhausted.   Your support helps me to keep going.  

They assumed my baby would be born with substances in her system.  They treated baby.  They gave withdrawal medication.  FOR NO REASON!!!Baby was tested and CLEAN.  Fully developed and perfectly healthy.   If not for healthcare providers neglect and stigmatic discrimination. 

What's done is done.  The only way to make this ok.  Is for baby to get the care she deserves.  To show that mistakes do not define me.  That I am not a product of my environment.   I create life.  I love deep.  This pain I carry hurts.  I still find love and faith inside me.  My life is more then a bi- product of my parents mistakes and pain that they carried. 

This is for all the moms that health care made feel so worthless.  To think that they do not deserve to care for baby.  That baby is better with a family that has money.  They gaslight and manipulate us to break down whatever self esteem left.  So confused.  24 hour surveillance.  Microscope.   Invade every inch of your world.  Threaten of child removal foster care sids and chronic disease that is all tactic.  To break new moms.  Most vulnerable times.

For all the babies left behind in the NICU... 

Thank you