hi everyone 

I want to apologise for not being here as much, and the slience. I kind of neglected my blog too. 

But autistic and ND, things get all to much or busy & life. And the general worry & anxiety of things. And i forget and neglect here & other stuff. 

Like for many autistic or AuDHDer's or disabled folks be it physical or mental etc. Being in dwp system is a constant worry & stress. And it sends ye mad. Like living crisis & energy crisis, bill constantly going up. And just being disabled or also like me ND & a different operating system etc. 

Also being a YouTuber , i love it & its hard work & yes its paid off as i have over 1,000 & more subscribers. But im still not monetized or on the pay roll yet. As you need 3,000 public watch hrs & something else. So its constant uploading on shorts where i get my views or 1 week uploads. 

Just trying to change a life & living situation &  being self employed & off the dwp system that is degrading & inhumane & controlled. 

Im not here to complain, or moan. As it gives my brain & mental health something positive to set my mind on. And yes i have done the normal jobs & it was masking & alcohol to cope. As ye know. It maybe not ideal for others or the youtube life of Being a Content creator. But its me trying & doing it for the better & lifestyle a bit easier. So when i do get on the pay roll & self employed. It be my own hrs & no control of dwp & reviews all the time. And i be better for it. While being an autistic advocate. 

I Don't have all the answers, or a wand, and being a YouTuber i am not here for fame or going viral. Even if i did , i still be me. And still live in my cosy 1 bed flat. I just be in a better situation with no worry of thinking when is my next review or my pip or esa stopped or forced into work or even more in poverty. And dire situation. 

I still have passion for this petition & i want change if it can happen for late autistic adults. But we have a very long way to go. For that change. Underfunded Councils & more cuts & even more autistic adults being detained in MH units & higher risks of suicide & the above i mentioned. Im not the only autistic adult in this situation. Many many are.

I will always be a voice & speak out as a wee dot as another advocate. But your help is needed by sharing & signing. Which i am greatful for & it means a lot. 

Once i get myself a name on youtube i can share this more & a wider audience. 

Sorry its long. Just a wee update on me & things & a wee apology. 

Thank you all once again, i appreciate it & it means a lot 

Kerri