It's been awhile since I've posted anything but honestly, there's nothing I can say. There's nothing left to say. 

Since my last update. This is what's happened. 

I have lost all contact with my grandkids. When told that I would remain a part of their lives, simply has turned out to be a blatant lie! Of course, I am at fault for that. I was faulted for standing my ground and the punishment was... losing my phone calls. 

It's been almost 3 months since I've talked to them. I miss them and I wish they were home. Sadly, it's too late for that. 

I'm not 100% sure of this but this is what I was told. The adoption was supposed to have taken place in August. If it happened then I wasn't made aware of it. Like I said... I have been cut completely out of their lives. 

This should have never happened! My grandkids should have never been taken from me. To be honest... I still don't know why they were. It's been 15 months and I'm still waiting for the reason. No one has gave me the reason and/or reasons. Because they have none. Only the ones they made up but have absolutely no proof of their accusations! 

I have been beaten down more than once by them. Been made out to have been the bad person but they had no proof. They had no evidence to prove that I was unfit. Had nothing to show that I couldn't care for my grandkids but since I couldn't afford an attorney. Since I couldn't do anything about it .I lost what means everything to me! 

The damage is done. Lives have been ripped apart. Relationships destroyed. The pain... I can't describe that. It hurts so bad! When you can literally feel your heart breaking over and over every day is not how one would like to live. I've stopped living my life. I work and I come home to only memories and a broken home. 

I promised my grandson that I would never give up and I wouldn't stop fighting to bring them home. I feel like I have failed him. I hope one day he finds out the truth. The truth about everything. I hope he finds out that I was never given the chance. I hope one day he will come to me... so I can SHOW him the truth. 

I've been told to accept this but I can't. I don't want to have to wait years to see my grandkids! I want and wish there was something I could do. I want to enjoy life again and more than anything... I want to spend every minute from this day on with them. They've been gone too long! 

BUT...

I'm posting this update because some of you wanted to know how this ended. Assuming that there's nothing else I can do then this unfortunately is the end. 

P.S.  If there was something I could do to have this reviewed or overturned then I would.  Is there?