First of all, I would like to thank those of you who clicked on my TikTok linktree to identify how you could help. I received the dried mangoes, diced fruit mix, guava juice, brown sugar the bed sheets. This means so much to me ....thank you!
The holidays are the worst time for my PTSD - the attacks are more chronic and more severe. That’s because there’s family talk everywhere. That means my PTSD is even more debilitating. Some of you ask whether I have anxiety and panic attacks at the same time. Yes, I do. As I described in my TikTok video, the anxiety is the general inclement weather of my PTSD for which I take no medicines. Panic attacks are cyclones triggered by different situations for example- the Christmas holidays.
How exactly does it feel?
Difficult to explain, but I will try:
This is the point at which some of the tools I learned from therapy seem inaccessible. But talking is nearly always available for me.
Hopelessness
In retrospect
This is my life experience many times a month. Before my son was deported, I had fewer panic attacks. No good government creates or exacerbates mental health!
I don’t know what I would do without you. Mental illness is real.
Thank you and happy holidays to you and your family!
Sincerely,
Victoria Sethunya