Good evening, Dear Readers! It is great to see you as always! Please, keep positive and resourceful. If you, like me, have been sanctioned heavily you'll sometimes feel like giving up. You can't think that way! Me? I thought that it would be a good idea to stay in bed for the most part of the day. No! I wasn't exactly feeling sorry for myself. Uh-uh! I figured that it would be a good idea to conserve my energy. My food supply is running low. I could go to my local Food Bank but as a Vegan, I would have to be very choosy. I would appear to be ungrateful. The Food Bank people are great! Because I am a Born Again Vegan, I can't go to get some food. I will be okay! It's not like I am on the point of starving to death like other people here in the UK and in remote regions of the world. Again, my not going to the Food Bank has nothing to do with pride. So, I urge you to go. You need sustenance. I think I will do a Survivors Guide to being Heavily Sanctioned quite soon! KILL BILL - THE VOLUMES Trying to manage the bills - on a sanction - is very much like a scenario out of a horror movie, you know the genre I am on about... It's the one where the protagonist thinks he or she is safe after killing the monster only for the thing to rise up again! Up pops another bill, today, wanting to be paid. Yeah, not another one! Still, I can't help but feel angry that I am having to go through this because a 28-day sanction was engineered by my former work coax, Tricky Vicky. Before that fateful day, I had the bills under control. I guess that I am having to go through this for a reason. I sincerely hope that this reason or one of the reasons is to bring an end to the sanctioning of Welfare Assistance. DARKNESS The saying, "It's always darkest before the dawn," rings incredibly true at this period. I have to survive another 15 days before I receive my next Universal Credit personal allowance. If you are thinking, "Why don't you get a job?" I have the pleasure of telling you that I am still applying for work! A few days ago I received a rejection email for a writing job; it was for a Consumer Technology journalist. I love Consumer Technology and the job would have been ideal. Besides, if I had gotten an interview there is no way that I would be able to make it as there is nothing in my account. And if I could miraculously start a job this coming Monday, I wouldn't be able to afford the travel and my bills aren't necessarily going to wait until I get paid. As resourceful as I am in getting a bit of an extension on repayment, I can only stretch things out for so long... See? I told you sanctioning the Welfare Assistance off the vulnerable doesn't work! As I was lying there, all manner of aspects regarding this nightmare trip started to flood my mind... MORE DARKNESS When I was little, my Mom told me to never wish death upon someone. Some time ago, in one of my updates, I wished death on Ian Duncan Smith and I also stated that another celebrity's death would be announced instead. I was kind of shocked to learn that we lost John Hurt. I pretty much grew up with his films - especially the iconic Alien film. Rise In Peace, John Hurt. Jeez, I can't get too maudlin in case it is discovered that he was a kiddy fiddler or some crap like that. Everybody has some kind of demon. When it comes to celebrities, we just don't know who they are as they are mostly acting all the way! Sometimes the mask slips... Believe it or not, I was saddened to learn of the death of It Girl, Tara Palmer-Tomkinson. Lots of things ran through my mind on her... I was thinking that she passed too young, she was born with a silver spoon in her mouth, had the Prince of Wales for a Godfather and yet she turned out the way she did. The truth is that I didn't begrudge her for being born into money. I didn't begrudge her lifestyle and the choices she made. That's how she lived. If anything that can be learned or understood from her passing is that we have to make the most of what we've got. At the same time, people are dying as a result of these God awful Welfare Assistance sanctions! We all will die at some point, why not celebrate life while we can? Why do we - as a society - walk with death? Why can't we live in a way that supports life? WAKE UP Tara Palmer-Tomkinson's passing is yet another wake-up call for me. How many of these calls must I endure, huh? What is it that I am doing wrong? I keep trying to awaken from this seemingly endless nightmare. I am desperate to do something with my life. It makes me sad how some people have made cruel comments aimed at TPT and her family. This shows me that many people are The Living Dead. Instead of enriching their own lives they waste time with posting nasty comments about a young woman who lived life on her own terms - at least that's what she appeared to be doing. When will people wake up, huh? Be kind. Someone has lost a child, a sister, and friend. I also urge you to think of those who have died because this idiot government thought it would be a good idea to sanction and/or stop the Welfare Assistance of the vulnerable. Rise In Peace, TPT! Thank you for reading. #Tara #TaraPalmerTomkinson