My son was taken from me on June 10th by his father after a weekend visit and he hasn't been returned to me since.  The father is an addict and had been frequently absent in my child's life. Besides paying paying child support he has never been a financial provider.  He hasn't allowed me to speak to my son or see him.  We have never been apart for more than 48 hours previous to this.  I have entered the courts pro se because I wasn't expecting this and it's taking taking 2 and months to get this court date jn the morning without a solid knowing if I am going to even get to see my kid in the morning.  I am being accused of all kinds of things including drugs which has caused law enforcement g to not even return a phone call on a welfare check.  Multiple times I have seen my child's dad and went tk go pick up my kid from his parents with the help from law enforcement and both times they waited until my child's father returned instead of releasing my child to me. North Dakota has a law that makes this a thing that is legal and it also enforces that law enforcement cannot interact with the civil matter.  My child needs me and I can't get to him because a guy he just recently called dad kidnapped him. And no one will help me get him back. I go into the court room tomorrow with no one behind me. To defend against a bunch of lies.  I'm a great mother I'm the best interest for my child. And im dying inside heart broken qnd afraid I might lose my cool tomorrow.  I shouldn't have to be fighting for my child this hard when I'm the only solid parent he's had in his entire life  this shouldn't be a question he should have never been able to be taken from me.

If I could change this so that child support documents and references from at least 3 people that he's been absent would support my custodial obligation to his life he might not have suffered all this psychogically... I wouldn't be either. I miss my child so much and I have no idea when I'm gonna see him ever again.