When I witnessed the first kill the hunt laughed. That's what they did when they'd learned they killed that fox. My first thought was I had let this animal down, that's your first thought and that's a really hard thing to deal with. You're there to try and protect it and you think well if I wasn't there would it have run a different way and got away. It can destroy you and it did for a while but thankfully from the support of other sabs you never get over it but you have to understand that things will go wrong. You'd be very fortunate to be a hunt sab and never witness a kill.
You have to learn that it's not your fault and you did do everything in your power. It is tough but it's the support that gets you through, it's the support that gets you back out in the field next week.
Please support Keep The Ban. If every person reading this was to give the equivalent of a cup of coffee each month we would never have to ask for funds ever again.
As of right now, we are directly funding a huge undercover investigation into fox hunting that will massively damage the future of this vile pastime. Every person who chips in makes a massive difference. Watch this space.