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Making progress, and your support keeps it moving forward! Here's what's happened: Contacted by lead attorney @Indiana Legal yesterday, looks like this process has been green lit!!?! Idk what it looks like but I am beyond grateful I get to begin the process and shake the foundation these people have solidly stood atop of for decades. It’s difficult to stand and ask for help. It scary to realize that without doing so, time keeps passing. Nothing feels worse than stagnant air of boxed up yesterday as company today. The appropriate steps weren’t obvious for me to take, once I decided that I wanted to take them. I get to walk my talk now. I get to stay humble by choice but succeed at shocking the noose of secrecy from around my own neck while stating ‘No. Matter of fact, heck NO! I matter, THIS MATTERS!!’ Once I got past the familiar act of shrinking back, not wanting to inconvenience others, it truly put me in a place I been searching for my entire life. Hard to understand how I really had been convinced for so long that raising attention to or FOR MYSELF wasn’t acceptable. It honestly is embarrassing, but seeing it means I can name it and its name is MANY words I’ve known very well (too long) but here are just 2: 1.) Sad. 2.) Wrong. And, then the anger rises and I find this gross urge to cuss. At the nerve and the gall. And this is why I decided to take the old ball (of crap) given to me to keep, and store away - and I did this. To keep people COMFORTABLE, and HAPPY. I did this really really well. Until I came to realize it’s not my ball at all. It’s what I was given, sure, but it isn’t right for me. It is heavy, it is gross and I find I tire of keeping it safe so, here: Now that ball, I got it rolling. I think it’s really rolling?! And that’s what hands were meant to do. And I’m SHOUTING! It feels good. Dang good. I will not feel bad so other people feel good, or find relief… and despise it, people should !! I do too!!!! Circling back around, with gratitude (//curtsy//). Love. Tough love- remember that?! There’s no more cover, girl. That ball, out of my hands. Lord willing, it’ll will wind up where it’s meant. The balance, on Earth, will always fight for what’s due. I despised being seen in this light, but I embrace this chance to be brave. I want other kids to see TO KNOW that they can be brave. ALONE, at first maybe yes. Folks shy away from hideous hidden truths like mine. BRAVE cause that courage- One sweet day, that courage will stand gather and organize, and the stigma of that ugly ball? Let it out of the dark and put light right on it. I am not The Problem. Gladly I’ll withstand in the glare so there’s zero mistaking ever again. I’m a mechanism for me! Truth’s actionable #1 component. #ownit #bebrave #balancedue #oldcrimesarestillcrimes I am so ready to feel lighter, better and like I did myself a solid that stands just. You did that and I did this. Hopefully. We all grew. Nothing good comes easy, I’m not there just yet. But I can’t wait to be just a little more whole. A belle. Of my own (new;different) ball. Not a toy, not a scapegoat, not The Problem. The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off. I’m Lauren. Nobody famous, yet I Am. (still) Some. One. now go hug your kids, grandkids, and each other. Be good to each other. Kids are to be seen, heard and BELIEVED. thanks for listening to me rant, report and rally around myself. Really; thank you. 🫶🏼 Think that’s all for a while. *stay tuned*