Im in a very unfamiliar and new field ive never dealt with before, so its gonna be i guess discouraging but I won’t give up. The more i do it the more natural it will become 

It bears repeating that most experienced skateboarders have years of negative encounters with the community behind them and have difficulty seeing the value of trusting the community to embrace their activity.

(skatepark development guide)

this is a vice versa situation for me, im just gonna have to have a new set of eyes and mind when approaching this. Just need to trust the renewing of my whole mind on this approaching seats of power, and my own behaviors just totally different mindset