Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all supporters! Happy Easter! I wrote my feelings for my Madisyn this Easter

I remember

the first time your tiny hand

wrapped around my finger—

a quiet promise

I didn’t know how to keep.

I remember

your first smile,

soft as morning light,

your first step—

a brave, wobbly leap into the world

that should have held you gently.

Your laughter,

like wind chimes in summer,

your first taste of sweetness,

sticky fingers and bright eyes,

wonder blooming everywhere you turned.

I remember

the first time you called me Mom—

how the word settled into my soul,

made a home there

it will never leave.

You held the world with open hands—

a puppy’s fur,

the rough warmth of a cow,

the impossible height of an elephant—

fearless, curious, alive.

I watched you

breathe in this world

like it was a miracle,

as if beauty was something

you could gather and keep.

And I am sorry.

So deeply, endlessly sorry.

Sorry the world did not protect you.

Sorry something so fragile and bright

could be taken

for reasons that should never exist.

Sorry justice feels like a word

that has forgotten its meaning.

Sorry the truth may fade in noise,

while your voice cannot return.

I wish you were here—

in the quiet,

in the laughter,

in every ordinary moment

that now feels unbearably empty.

The darkness should not have found you.

It should not have known your name.

You deserved time—

more sunsets, more firsts,

more everything this life could give.

All I have left

is love that has nowhere to go

but into memory—

so I will carry you there,

in every breath,

in every story,

in every fragile piece of light I can still hold.

You are gone from this world—

but not from me.