Mom, I understand it is a huge burden that eve and I put on you when we are constantly asking you to help with the kids especially because your husband has required so much of your time too because of his illness and because you have also been sick. I know my issues are driving you crazy too. I need you to try to relax. I cannot stay strong knowing that you are obssessing with my situation and are missing out on everything happening out there. I need you to wake up in the morning and look forward to your day because if you are out there the way you have been it is only going to eat away at you until you are either sick, crazy, or dead. I cannot have that. Live like I am home with you. Enjoy your grandchildren who love you and need you now more than ever. I know it is a task and more than a pain in the ass to have to watch bratty kids when all you can think about is me. Trust me. I am doing everything I can to get out there with you but my constant worrying about you, the kids, andy, chris, eve, the girls, and ramonin is not only a huge distraction from what I need to get done but it causes me sadness and pain. I need to know that all of you are working together to make life as great as it can be for the kid's and your sake. I need to know that you are supporting eachother the way you are supporting me.