Had a creative options meeting this morning with everyone on the case and things just keep getting worse for my kids. I absolutely hate this so much. My son was removed on the 19th from the last placement he was at and placed in a respite home until they find him a residential treatment to be at. He apparently started having a meltdown, which I've never seen from him, because he's never acted this way before prior to being removed from my home in 2019. He started throwing things and running around the house yelling at the top of his lungs. etc. It is so devastating to hear that your baby is so scared and so confused, that he doesn't know how to feel. They keep removing him from homes and placing him in another one. The reason for putting him in a residential was to give him stability and stop the moving, but it just continues while waiting for residential to open up. It literally makes me sick to my stomach to think that my son can continue to escalate as we go along and possibly self harm. It is terrifying, because I don't know where he's at and I can't keep him safe. I am literally in tears right now, because I do not know what to do. I want to be able to stop them and bring both my kids home and they will not allow it. Every time I give them an option for a kinship place with a family or friend they turn it down. They keep saying "Well the reality is this" and "The reality is that" I'm honestly so sick of hearing that, because the Reality is CPS is the one who has done this to my kids. They need residential help, because of CPS, not because they were like this when they first took them. CPS will never admit that though. They are only doing what is in the best interest of the kids, right!!!???? NO!!! They are making my children and children like mine feel like they are worthless and making them wanting to threaten to hurt themselves and others. Then they blame it on the parents, so they can keep us from our children longer. Please continue to share my story and sign this petition. It would mean so much to me to have all your support and to be able to stick it to CPS when I bring my kids home for good and close this case.