i'm atheer 23 years old i was born and raised in a small town in saudi arabia i have sisters but there was always distance between us and my mother used to separate us whenever she saw me play with them my father been always so angry and mad at me for a reason or not he will start sexualizing me when i was at the age of puberty "never did that to my sisters it was only me because i had more feminine body growing up" when i was choosing my major he signed the university papers and he didn't allow me to choose the major that i wanted "again this treatment was only for me" he forced me to cover my face study major i didn't want to study just because it's closer to home he discovered that i date girls then he took everything i had even my id card my bank card and he let all my sisters drive but me i reported him they didn't do anything but at least i got my cards back but since then the whole family cut me off even though i'm living at the same house they stopped talking to me except my 6years old sister they started hiding food from the kitchen till a point where i lost alot of weight because i was starving they used to travel and leave me home alone with the doors locked with no food for days and with no further notice they stopped letting me go out with them even shopping is forbidden for me unless it's online i only go out with them because i'm not allowed to go out alone or with friends i graduated two years ago and i can count on my fingers how many times i went out. 

 i live in a small town so i always get job interviews in other cities and i ask my family can someone take me do this interview and they say no i never got any interviews here i don't have any money to just go seek a better life i feel like a prisoner sometimes i cry for hours thinking of a way that could save my youth from being wasted like this my only allowance is 100 rials i ask my mother for and i feel like a burden every time i ask because i can clearly see that she hates me sometimes she say wait till the end of the month but then she never gives me i just want enough money for me to get out of here and start my own life i don't want it to be luxury just something i can start my life with