Hi,

I have binge eating disorder I have had it for years. It goes back to my illness when I was too tired to think so I just need a boost. A rice crispy cake would help two or chicken nuggets after school. And in more ways than one I have never moved on from what the illness represents or become a proper independent adult. Now I keep eating like this for comfort and who knows if I enjoy eating it or not. I know its funny to a lot of people. But binge eating does exist. I walk into a store when buying my own shop and go crazy and buy everything then leave 3 or 4 hours in the day to eat it all. From cosmic brownies 12 pack, to a family bag of crisps, 2 Greg sausage rolls and donuts. At least I can do what I want when I binge eat. I suffered a lot of loneliness when ill and ate a lot in my room. I think suffering from a chronic illness can make you pick up depressive habits which make you stuck in the same position for years. I went to weight watchers and tried many diets. I didn't eat for three days at one point. Suffered from mental illness not sure what it is though. I haven't got over how I was treated at high school. I was on my own a lot and certain people called me a loser a few times as I was on my own it hurt. I choose to be alone sometimes at lunch or walking down the street but that was a no no people told me. I did things my way and hung out with everyone never around much to make a stand. People did like me. I never knew where I fitted in. I still don't know. People treated me well at school as well though. I admit it I have no shame I share everything with family and friends, everyone. I still need to be fixed. I over think things, have a constant scared feeling and I am trying to master that and get over it. I got invited to a few parties at high school. And now at university things are quite different. I am currently at home for the summer as my last flat share went south.

Love Kirsty