To my missing child

My  dearest son 
I am writing this to you with a heart that has never stopped holding space for you. If you are reading these words someday, I want you to know one absolute truth above all else: you were deeply loved, and you were wanted every single day since you left my arms.
Not a single day has passed where I haven't wondered about your smile, the sound of your laugh, the person you are growing up to be. No matter the miles, the time, or the silence between us, my love for you has never faded or changed.
You carry a piece of my soul with you wherever you go. When you look at the stars or feel the wind, know that I am looking at them too, wishing with all my heart that we were together. I have held onto hope every single moment.
Whenever you are ready whether that means asking questions, searching for answers, or just needing to know your story I am here. My arms and my heart are always open to you.
With all my love,
Mom