Take a look at this photo of my 7 year old daughter and my mother crying for me in the window, I was leaving my daughter to stay there through the pandemic. I am a nurse in accident and emergency and was terrified of passing it on to them. The most heart-breaking decision I have  ever made, you see no one tells you when you sign up to become a nurse that you will be putting yourself at risk, your family at risk or you could potentially die from a virus that the government has failed to protect you against! I watched in horror as colleagues succumbed to the virus and I sat awake at night and just cried.  I thought of my own mother and daughter and wondered if this image would have been the last I saw of them, the last time I hugged them. I couldn’t help but think that I wouldn’t have the opportunity to see my daughter grow. The guilt was overwhelming, I thought if I died would my daughter spend the rest of her life thinking that I chose my job over being her mother. Six weeks my daughter stayed at my mothers, six weeks of memories, I missed them every second. I missed Easter, I missed hugs, I missed bedtime stories; I couldn’t comfort her and I was not there when her little world fell apart. I ask myself for what? Why? Why have I risked it all for a job with a real terms 20% pay cut since 2010, for a government that time and time again continue to take advantage of the amazing things we, as an NHS do on a daily basis. They sent us in without adequate PPE, they sent us to the slaughter and clapped on their doorsteps whilst we were dying on the frontline. They say we are worth 1%? Do you believe we are worth 1%. If you truly believe NHS staff are worth more than a cup of coffee per week then please forward this petition to your friends, family, and colleagues. We need your help to make this government understand that enough is enough. At 1 million signatures this petition will become one of the most signed on change.org please help