As many of you know, I've been pushing a demand for nation wide action against police murders for quite some time, using a petition in the hopes of galvanizing a nation wide movement. As simple as it may sound, it has not been easy. For in the mist of trying to obtain signatures and garner support by way of donations, I've had the "fight of a life time" simply moving forward. I didn't know when I began this fight, that I would be fighting against those within it. I thought we were "all on the same page" and there would be "solidarity and support" for all demands concerning justice. I soon learned that is not the case at all. There are factions in this fight which presume to be the "spokes person for all" yet they do not "speak for all" but presume the claims to do so. Had there been a fight which "covered all victims" particularly those frightened into silence, whose names and victimization are UNKNOWN, I more than likely might have never began this fight but supported the one already existing. I have no need to be "front and center of a fight" if a fight speaks to my issues of concern. The whole point of my fight, is that I saw an issue of concern which was NOT addressed, as if it were invisible to those contending and fighting for justice. And even when articulated, the ability to comprehend the magnitude of what was being stated was missing. Because they nodded in agreement yet proceeded in paths which guaranteed disappointments and failures. 

I have had to watch these scenarios repeat and count the bodies taken in the process, while feeling helpless to say or do anything concerning it. You don't "dash hope" you hope that someones faith will prevail over the odds stacked against them. This I did for years, while in possession of a demand nation wide in scope! You cannot know what it means to be "looked upon and called upon" as someone who understands this fight and "the pain of losing of loved one to police" - yet hold a very different stand and position than those who seek your counsel and advice. Nor would you understand possessing what you believe to be a remedy and have it "walked over and dismissed" by those who seek your aid and assistance. Try and comprehend "fighting a fighting demanding justice for all" while habitually seeing fights "demanding justice for one" and thousands support and pour money into it,  and justice is DENIED and the process REPEATS at the next murder.  While this "repeats over and over" they begin to question "where your fight is" and presume "there is no fight" just a petition. So they take it upon themselves to initiate a fight "nation wide in scope".  How do you tell people that that is not your fight when they come to you inquiring about it because they know you have a demand nation wide in scope, which you've been pushing for years, without injecting "political bullshit" into the equation? How do you explain it is not your fight, you did not initiate it, and avoid the questions which come after being told  this? I'm not here to sabotage any ones effort, yet I find myself in one helluva predicament. And as I weigh the options before me none appear to be correct! For if I sit and say nothing, questions arise as to "why I am not present" further giving the impression that i am doing nothing more than a petition. And if I speak and address it, I will appear to despise what others are doing, for the presumption is we all fight the same. 

I believe I'm at "a cross road" concerning this fight and there is no "red light, green light, go". There's no "turning back" and there is "no forward movement" either. There is only "a stand and position" I've taken. And having done all things, I intend to stand.

Danette L Chavis - National Action Against Police Brutality and Murder!