This day I put my faith in you,
And hoped you’d see my side.
I sat there, tried to listen hard,
But really only cried.
 
This day I put my faith in you,
I respected all you said.
I felt I owed you everything,
I believed each word I read.
 
This day I put my faith in you,
I thought you’d have my back.
But as I sat and listened,
I began to see the cracks.
 
This day I put my faith in you,
I should have stayed at home.
Today you walked away from me,
You told me I was done.
 
This day I lost my faith in you,
My PIN is yours to hold.
It was never mine, but on loan to me,
And now it’s yours I’m told.
 
This day I lost my faith in you,
You brandished me unfit.
My years they count for nothing,
I disappear… I sit.
 
This day I lost my faith in you,
As you listened to the lies.
I thought you’d care for me as well,
I’m not worthy in your eyes.
 
This day I put my faith in you,
But you washed your hands of me.
So now I try to build my life,
Scarred by NMC.
 
This day I lost my faith in you,
I have no - where I can turn.
The largest part of me is gone,
There’s no lessons that you learn.
 
This day I tried to find the strength,
Not to hold my head in shame.
I know I did the best I could,
I was not the one to blame.
 
This day I try to carry on,
To see that I am more,
Than just my PIN, my life as a nurse,
My growth, my ethos and my core.
 
This day our patients lost their chance,
To have my care and skill
Your panel took that chance away,
One less to help the ill.
 
One day you may a lesson learn,
That few of us recover.
Broken by your lack of care,
A line of souls to suffer.
 
Dedicated to the 15 nurses who died since April 2015,
 before their Fitness to Practice cases concluded.