Long Read, Answering Questions
I just have a bold approach.
When a thief steals merchandise, police don't demand a corporate affidavit proving it wasn't a charitable donation. The legal system begins with an immediate assumption: the store wanted its goods exchanged for money. Property rights are completely presumed. The owner doesn't have to fight the thief to prove ownership. The store left items out in the open and the doors were unlocked, yet no one assumes consent and detectives don't spend hours questioning them about if they really didn't give it away. A lot of women who are assaulted know their perpetrators, greet them, and let them into what eventually becomes the crime scene.
If a grizzly bear corners you in the woods and you have no weapon, playing dead is an instinctual survival mechanism for an absolute physical deficit. No one asks if you laid there because you wanted to be consumed. Valuing life is completely presumed. A lot of women freeze exactly like this during an assault.
If a cat latches onto a gecko’s tail, the gecko sacrifices its tail to escape. Even if captured later, no one believes the gecko wanted to be eaten—especially when they see the missing tail. Sacrificing something major to get out alive is completely presumed. A lot of women fawn like this, giving a predator whatever he wants just to survive the room.
In Judge Antonio S. Nicholson’s courtroom, I offered to sacrifice my IIED claim. I didn't want to but I wanted the defamation case to survive more.
When a woman’s physical bodily autonomy is violated through a structural abuse of power (whether sexual assault or bad faith medical discovery fishing expeditions), the entire burden of proof is flipped upside down.
How does the prey prove they didn't want the predator to violate them? THEY NEVER HAVE TO. Every reasonable person begins with an automatic presumption that it didn't... except in the case of sexual assault. You assume the store wanted money in exchange for goods. You assume the gecko wanted to live. For sexual assault accusers, we don't get any immediate presumption of not even wanting to be in a position to accuse anyone of anything. The baseline that saves everything else is corrupted with us. PEOPLE DOUBT SURVIVORS BASIC EVOLUTIONARY INSTINCT NOT TO WANT TO BE A VICTIM even when we act just like other animals.
This exact same corrupted baseline presumption is precisely what Judge Antonio S. Nicholson used. Judge Antonio S. Nicholson group-enclosed himself with corporate defense attorney Ziad Tayeh to look at me and say: "We Don't Believe You [about your own medical records and life]."
I don't even have to ask why. Store owners get the presumption of wanting an exchange for money. The accused still gets the presumption of innocence even when caught on CCTV. Imagine if store owners had to prove beyond a reasonable doubt that they didn't mean for the thief to walk into their unlocked building and take what they wanted. The Prosecutor would say, "There are price tags on items." The Defense Attorney would then say, "You assumed my client could read." And, no one can force the thief onto the stand to ask if they can read.
In Courtroom 17-C, I was never afforded the luxury of a presumption that I brought a case because I was wronged. My claims immediately lacked merit, and I was scrutinized as a frivolous liar based upon Judge Antonio S. Nicholson blindly believing the words of Attorney Ziad Tayeh. None of these men or systems has true respect for women.
Women do not get the presumption of basic human ownership over their own bodies, names, or pain. In a system built by JDs who count with their feelings like Colin Mischak, a woman’s bodily autonomy is treated as a public utility—an open territory that any predator can invade, and something any corrupt court can demand a 10-year forensic passport to explore.
Property is given an automatic boundary. A woman is given an automatic interrogation. That's what I got in Judge Antonio S. Nicholson’s courtroom.
After my assaults, I courageously dated. I thought, "I was raped because I'm desired." Now, I'm happily married to a man who I desire. My perpetrator dated and... he has more accusers.
He told them not to talk to me and led them right to me. He and his family tried to isolate, bully, and SILENCE them and me.
Judge Antonio S. Nicholson tried to silence me, too. There has been a global stay in my cases in Courtroom 17-C for over 4 months now.
Despite the stay, I executed and there is no doubt per the public record. I have caught Attorney Ziad Tayeh and Donte Terray Sales in material falsehoods. These are the exact people who vehemently accused me of lying about material things. Perjury, a material falsehood, is the only prior bad act that a judge has zero discretion over and must admit in criminal trials under Ohio Rule of Evidence 609 to eviscerate a fabricator's standing. They don't need me to convict him of that.
So, basically, a conviction is much easier now. I never reported to secure a conviction for myself. Even with all that I've accomplished, I still don't want to honor this broken criminal system with my testimony. (My Sex Crimes detectives were awesome. I just want to say that.) I don't care who believes me. I'm not the mind police.
Bear with me when I say that I'd rather rot in prison for the rest of my life than submit to the authority of the State to have Donte Terray Sales convicted for all he has personally done to me. What for?
I am so much more than a breathing piece of evidence for a Prosecutor's work project. I care about what happened to me the most out of anyone in the world, so I am the best one to handle it. I proved it by securing admissions and perjury without a single use of force. That is something most prosecutors never do. Historically, prosecutors are a recent invention; we didn't always have them. I don't think they do anything enough to where we need them.
The State, guided by the discretion of judges like Antonio S. Nicholson, catches and releases these predators. We will all have to live among them. We give these judges 5% annual raises so they can take more of our tax dollars to hand out deals that force us to live with more and more criminals. Jails can't hold them all and courts can't deal with them all. Hence, plea deals.
Aren't these elected officials supposed to be reducing crime? They lack the Skin in the Game to do so. They need perpetrators and victims so they can eat. No crime, no job. That's why it flourishes.
Instead, I'm taking the personal risk and naming my predator. When I win, I'll get something tangible like money (that helps me eat) and not feed a system where I have to endure the cruelty of a trial and the cruelty of a Judge's decision that 99.9% of the time lets perpetrators walk free after a wrist slap.
You decide how you interact with my perpetrator. I know that if they or any of their family, friends, or associates disagree with me, say so publicly. Say I'm a liar. But also say your full name, address, and contact number so I can avenge the dignity of myself and his other victims by proving you wrong and taking your money.
There is so much missing data about sexual assault and what really goes on in Judges' courtrooms. Thousands of cases just really lost in the ether and whittled down into blameless statistics... and tropes.
Ben Franklin said that it is better 100 guilty persons should escape than that even 1 innocent person should suffer. Sure thing, even though no one who looked like me was a Framer or Signer of the Constitution or the Bill of Rights. The problem is no one is naming or solidifying the 100!! Anyone who isn't convicted is deemed innocent even though that is not what "Not Guilty" means. It is not a factual declaration of innocence but an administrative determination that the State did not meet its burden.
Donte Terray Sales is one of the 100 guilty persons who escape. In a criminal case, prior bad acts laws would leave out that he nearly killed a child via strangulation and only got 4 days in jail for it. Prior bad acts laws would mean he wouldnt have to call all of the exes he has who accuse him but do not report. In a civil case, I can. And when they don't respond to subpoenas I can show how he intimidated them and submit their texts as evidence. He rapes, sexually assaults, and abuses women. He is not safe to date.
Some of his closest friends, family, and associates are Worthington Steel, Cleveland State University, Aleeya Woods, Ashley Irwin and Dustin Irwin, Autumn Sales, Lena Sales, Damien Potts, Stacy Conde, Arianna Conde, Karelys (Kary) Cruz-Torres, Eric Sinnott, and more.
I do not need the government to bless my lived experience with their prosecution.
I'm writing my own Sex Offender List.
I'm not the mind police. I'm the first Enabler Collection Agency, making them put their money where their mouth is.
I would rather this than to totally leave what happened to me to a Judge like Antonio S. Nicholson in a case that I do not even control because the State completely owns it.