Sorry I have been MIA

Good afternoon everyone. I am sorry that I haven't updated much lately. We have had a lot going on the last couple of months. I am exhausted physically and mentally. I usually start feeling this way right around my birthday and it will last through the end of the year. Brittany always made my birthday very special. When I say that she spoiled her mommy....she really did. She got that from me. We always tried to spoil people on their birthdays. It has been extremely hard for me since Brittany was taken from us. I tend to just want to spend my birthday in bed. But I don't...and I didn't. But regardless of how hard I try to be upbeat...it doesn't work. I have found that I have been crying daily and that I can't seem to get myself out of this funk. My husband and other children have noticed it as well. I am usually good at hiding it. I wake up with my eyes swollen from crying in my sleep. It's all truly exhausting. David and I also moved back in town. Living in the mountains wasn't very good for me. I felt very isolated and I was falling into a deeper depression. We decided to move in with our oldest daughter, her fiance, and our grand daughter, Paisley. Paisley has brought so much joy into our lives. But every day when she is doing something new, I can't help but to feel so cheated. Brittany should be here to see her niece grow up. But I digress....we are still gathering signatures in the hopes of getting this law passed. Our daughter was cheated out of graduating college, getting married, having children, and seeing her niece's and nephew's grow up. We all have been cheated. I am so angry with every passing day. My daughter should be here. I should hear her laughter, feel her embrace, see her beautiful smile. But instead....I have to gaze upon her photo's that are scattered throughout the house. And if I want to hold her...I have to hold the cold urn that cradle her remains. This is not what I want. And this is not what I want for any other parent to ever have to endure!! Please continue to pass along our petition. Thank you all and God Bless! Warmly, Dianna