hi everyone 

I want to apologise for not being here much , not because of Christmas , as i Don't celebrate itor part take in it. 

My health like all of it ( mental /physically )

I won't go into much , but i am seeing a dietician in Jan 17th & i am awaiting an appointment back with the pain clinic ( for my neuropathy pain) ie chronic nerve pain. 

I forget the medical term, there is a lot going on atm. In ones personal medical health wise. I haven't ignored or forgotten about this said petition. Being ND there is only so much i can take on before burnout happens & being not well inside and out it takes it out on you 10x more. 

I am very happy you all are still fighting this petition & fighting with me , while i have been away. It means a lot, i still blog about my experience. And i still voice in my youtube channel. 

I have taken it upon myself not just an autistic person but many other people with different disabilities or are disabled. To air a honest conversations about being on benefits ( uk) and the inhumane & degrading system. And endless reviews for a long term condition i have. Etc. I will share the video when i it airs on January 8th. On my YouTube channel. It is over 18s & sensitive content warning & a trigger warning. 

I like many other autistics adults are still alone in society & with no help or service or community. And left to fend for ourselves & fighting every authority & dwp.

As well as suicide ideation, being a dual diagnosis AuDHDer  ( autism / adhd combined type) my brain & me as an atom always on or one fights the other. Added with ptsd & mental health right down to the physical health. I am not here for sympathy or pity parties. I am just being honest for how it is for me and my experience and truth and since diagnosis of 2017 / 2021. 

I became an advocate to help others & educate, and to air my voice like many others in the autistic community ( adults). 

My youtube is televised & my life as a whole. I don't have all the answers or knowledge. I only know what i know to an extent of my own experience & the hardships i face and battle daily. 

If you want to check out my youtube channel & see a day in the life of an Autistic and routine. Its Different_Not_Broken 

I thank you all for your understanding & the anonymous contributions and sharing & signing , to the comments. I am now at 803 subscribers on youtube. Help me get to 1000 so i can become self employed & get of this horrible system of dwp. Its a big ask but share my channel with family & friends. 

I am not about going viral or famous. Just changing my situation for the better. While advocating & being self employed. 

Happy new year 

Kerri