Am i worth living to you?

Should be an hilarious question...apparently it should...

i am just trying to be vague because the nightmare i am living seems completely out of its own skills to portray a meaning...

So I repeat, am i worth living to you? Even so, i was obliged to renounce to many things in life, starting from having kids, because already quite old in age, apparently i can't fetch some decency/respect neither in sound engineering, (not even after 31+ years of practice and studies), neither in sound design, and those are just few of the mental issues those mythomaniacs are afflicting to my image...

https://soundcloud.com/qualitydubs

HELP! HELP BECAUSE IS COMPLETELY DYSTOPIC AS A LIFE, I DON'T WANT TO THINK VIOLENT, IS COUNTERPRODUCTIVE! HELP AGAIN!