It’s 2:00 am and I'm still awake... Baby, I won’t be able to sleep until I’m with you again. I miss you. I hate the way you were treated. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you when you were abused and died. I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you were screaming my name and took your last breath.

I will never stop fighting to save the lives of others, who suffer the challenges like you. I promise to take down these facilities in NJ that harbor terrorists who torture and kill our most vulnerable, so help me God. So help me God. I couldn’t fight evil, to save you, my baby. We WILL get surveillance cameras in NJ Group Homes. I don’t give a damn what ABCD, and ARC say. Their beliefs, I believe took away my son's life and the lives of others, by protecting these NJ facilities harboring abuse.

I'm sick and tired of their frivolous investigations. I’m angry, Billy you were robbed from me, you are the love of my life. I’m losing my grip, but still holding and being strong for others. It was my husband's last dying wish after the loss of our son. I feel like I’m dying inside. 

The State of NJ, you’re a disgrace! Martha Earl Cray