Hey baby boy its abit weird writing on here I know but I also know you'll eventually see this so you'll read it eventually. I just want you to know how much I love and miss you! I just want you to know your mom didnt just have your brother and sail off into the sunset and live happily ever after! I just want you to know your not unwanted, you never was unwanted not for one moment! I just want you to know whenever you see this you can always contact me any time of day/night even if you just want to shout at me and even if you feel it was somehow me or your moms fault, I'm ALWAYS here and ALWAYS will be, my door and your moms door is ALWAYS open for you, if you ever need me for ANYTHING i am only a call/msg away, I'm your dad and your my world and dont ever feel hesitant to contact me whenever you need me it's my job to be there for you unconditionally! I just want you to know i love you more than that false 'family' ever could. I just want you to know you have a bank account we all pay into so even if you don't want to know me for nothing else but your money thats fine son as long as your ok it doesn't matter! I just want you to know ill be waiting for you however long it takes. I just want to be your dad and do all them father/son things i always imagined we'd do. I just want you to know your so brave and I'm SO PROUD of you, you truly are MY HERO! I guess I just want you to know you've got a dad who loves you more than anything in this world and a dad whos never ever gonna give up on you! My love for you will never ever diminish and the pain will never ever dull! I dont know what else I could possibly have done son, me and your mom paid for that assessment ourselves and we passed! Me and your mom were told 'he's attractive to adopters because you've done such a good job with him' and I just want you to know im here any time any place, anything for you son! I'll leave it here for now I love you more than anything always have always will your my everything son! Love you forever and ever love your daddy! Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx