This is Mylo, the silly little guy of the house. Sweet and gentle and loves massages. A pleasure picking up after such a good soul, he gave nothing but love and his sad looking eyes would melt anyone's heart... He was only 9 years old and still full of life when we rushed him to the hospital to find out hours later that he had stones in his bladder and one was actually stuck in his urethra which meant he needed an emergency operation, or else his bladder would rupture and he would die in excruciating pain.

I was pulled over to the side of the highway, when the doctor told me the operation would cost about $7000CAD plus tax and that he needed the operation within the next couple hours. I agreed and asked if I can make payments only to be told surgery needs to be paid up front in full or they will not operate.

The panic, pleading and humiliation I felt in the next hour after that call was unacceptable in today's society.

I was kissing Mylo's sweet face as the doctor asked if I was ready. I still reenact in my head everyday how he was kissing me all over my face wanting to just go home and cuddle on the sofa while I watch TV. I said Yes to the doctor and continued kissing his face and telling him what a good little boy he is, and she injected him with propofol. He looked up to the ceiling and then immediately plopped down on my lap lifeless with his little tongue out and eyes open. I was shocked and mortified. She then injected the uther to stop his heart and I held him for a while in case he really wasn't dead. Just in case he could still hear me and feel me. I held him until he started to feel cold.

It's been months and I still feel guilt and shame, I basically gave the order to kill my sweet boy. I felt forced into murdering him, he was like a child to me, and this was all over money.. an immediate payment. I could have put down more than half of the payment, I just couldn't get the whole payment in one day. How is this even a thing? There needs to be a law passed that prohibits animal hospitals from demanding full payments for emergency operations. Not to mention the hundreds spent to that same Hospital for weeks trying to figure out what was wrong with him shortly before this. How morbid a world when you need to choose to put down your pet because of a payment. Money is very important I am the first one to agree, but... there needs to be rules when it comes to living beings. I don't want anyone else going through this with their pet.

I'm dead inside. I still have Mylo's spot saved on the bed. I smell his little clothes once in a while but it hurts, so not often.

We need to pass a law to make it illegal for animal hospitals to demand full payment in emergency situations, because our pets are actual members of the family.